“I’m Alive!”
This is the backstory. I danced with death twice in the early part of 2008. One dance was due to falling off a
ladder, which resulted in a subdural hematoma (traumatic brain injury). The other was prostate cancer that had
metastasized beyond the prostate. Fortunately, I was able to out dance death on my dancefloor of life.
Both the dances radically changed my life in a most positive manner. Initially, I wasn’t aware of the changes.
The accident of falling off a ladder caused me to be hospitalized in ICU for four weeks and a rehab hospital for
another three weeks. However, I don’t remember the fall, going to the hospital, being transferred to the rehab
hospital, and only remember the last week and a half before returning home.
When I finally got home, I had to restart my life. It took a couple months to return to my normal life.
Nevertheless, I lacked a frame of reference of what the old me was like. During my recovery at home, I continued
to make changes in my life, which weren’t considered changes by me at that time. I thought that I was just
returning to my old normal. Nonetheless, it took about five years to realize the new me. I had an anniversary
party, which I called my Humpty Dumpty Party. I planned a family party to celebrate nearly killing myself due to
the fall. It seemed quite reasonable to have that party. Looking back on that party, I realize that it must have
seemed avant-garde by my family members.
It wasn’t until I watched Randy Pausch’s The
Last Lecture before I realized the changes in me. The changes weren’t in direction but in intensity. It
didn’t take but a few moments of watching that video before I realized what a eureka moment means. I
was able to grasp what Archimedes must have felt a couple millennia ago.
That is the backstory. Now, let me explain my second eureka moment to you. I ordered a pair of loafers
from Amazon. A couple days later, they arrived. I love my new shoes. However, what I love more was that the shoe
company enclosed an envelope with a letter and a haunting picture on a postcard in the shoebox. Man, I looked at
that picture of a guy standing on the roof of a crashed airplane for the longest time. It reminded me instantly
of watching Randy Pausch. Pausch, the guy on the plane, and I shared something in common…survival. Eureka is the
only word that I can express how I felt watching The Last Lecture video. As I starred at that postcard, it was
the same eureka experience.
The Last Lecture and the postcard both define who I am. I’m alive! I have had the great fortune of reaching the
twelfth anniversary of my fall. I lucked out. I won’t waste my remaining time on my journey down the yellow
brick road of life wishing that things were different. I don’t want to relive either of my dances, but I would
not delete either from my life.
My two dances made me realize that my clock was ticking. Unless you have done the dance and/or bought loafers
from Amazon with that postcard, you know your clock is ticking…intellectually. Prior to my two dances, I was
just like you. However, it is more than hearing the clock ticking. It is as if I can feel it in my gut. I am
alive! I have things to do on the time remaining on the dancefloor of my life.
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